Something I wish......

So recent events have made me think about the years that I was single and what I wish I had done differently. Now I know that all events bring one to the place we are now, but in that time I could've used my time a bit better to feel like more of a whole person now. Like #1: I wish I had gone against the grain and thought " you know, I don't need a guy to complete me" I think being single we so badly want to feel like we are important to someone of the opposite sex and that life will be great then. Sidenote: then when we are married we wish the opposite....just kidding! Anyways, I wish that I had done things to prove myself and to have my own identity instead of "so and so's girlfriend or so and so's wife" How great would it have been to take up politics (so I wouldn't be so damn confused now) or finish my degree (again the whole damn confused thing) or went to Disney World by myself just because I wanted to? How cool would it be to look back and think I went on mission trips (like Lisa and Steph....those are the ones I know of) and have great memories that way helping people and not just doing it to find God's right one for me. Now don't get me wrong, some of the stuff I did still makes me laugh now, but buying 3 new shirts each week (one for Thursday, one for Friday, one for Saturday) and spending alot of money on consumption, either alcohol or just being out to dinner to hang out with friends to begin our night out, just seems like I could've redirected my money and talents in other directions, making me more of a whole person with again my own identity. I didn't even look like myself! I tried all I could to look like Madonna.
So all that to say "I wish I had done things and lived life when I was alone to make my own identity instead of focusing so much on trying to combine with someone else's"